Chronicles Of Chiney B

  All we have is today, makes no sense to cry about the past makes no sense to cry about the future for it is uncertain, all we have is today. Today I met a guy named Jamaal who lost both his legs due to a conflict at a cookout that resulted in gunfire bullets are dangerous. Maybe there needs to be more regulation on the bullets and who can purchase bullets I don’t know how to put an end to gun violence, but I know that the results of it is been catastrophic to say the lease. I hope that today you will appreciate your legs and your use of them more than any other item on your body and your eyes. Not to forget our hands. If you have to wear glasses, I’m sorry, if you still have good eyes, be thankful, you never know when you might loose them. He even wore sneakers. On his double Amputee walking device, That was the most humbling part of my day. Appreciate Today.

Never give up is overrated, I feel like becoming a quitter. This life has become too hard for me. Though I am live in the simplest version of it I am overwhelmed by my circumstances I think about my newly seven year old child, and all the things that he will want and require of me , for the rest of his life, I am lucky to have made a baby with a man who is responsible. he takes care of his son. I’m so proud that he is the dad, I sometimes wish that we could be back together, even through all the hardships and all the things that he’s done to me I forgive him. I am having trouble working through these emotions, the divorce came out of nowhere. I wasn’t expecting it when it came, but it happened and all I can do is move on and wish for the best, I desperately tried to bury my emotions for him, but I can’t seem to move on. Why can’t I move on?  I beat myself up daily. With these thoughts, they don’t seem to be going anywhere just ruminating. If rumination was a direction, I would assu...