Chronicles Of Chiney B

  You're the only Tenn - I -C As the aircraft taxis down the runway I think back to my 1st time on an airplane. The iron bird. (I know that airplanes aren’t made of iron but humor me for a second) Will it crash into the ocean? Well at least I can swim, right. How long would I be floating in the ocean for? You know typical stuff that you think about before you fly. Or am I alone here? I mean think about it every time you fly, you have to be prepared for the absolute worst case scenario. Otherwise you wouldn’t do it, right? Houston we have Lift off! The feeling of the gravity against the wings of the airplane unimaginable but man has mastered it. With the help of other worldly being I’m sure. What is being held at Area 51? Human beings are incredible. God grants us these spectacular abilities to do remarkable things, but they have to be harnessed. Surround yourself with people who will hearken at the good qualities in you. People who will help you bring to fruition the natura...

  Capsules Tightly wrapped capsules. What if every pill you took wasn’t a remedy. What if they were just small collections of things that have yet to happen? Would the world work for me or against me. Am I filled with too many complexities that I don’t know my true self. Am I comedy in someone’s world. or a commodity? Do I want to be sold all around the world like a Relic; stuck in time or do I want to be free? And if so what will the real world look like. Would you travel the galaxy? Or would you rather stay strapped to the things you love? Are we all just afraid to let loose, and be ourselves too afraid of just being ourselves, whatever version that is, some of us just too afraid to let loose. Why do i fear so much? Should i eliminate every threat or do I wait until it gets close enough then like a doggy, pet it. Life’s good now sit, enjoy the show. Are we all animals in a petting zoo? Who’s raising your kids? Trust the IPad? Or trust god that the right things will find...

Today I’m alright. What I think and what I would like are often not the same thing. Why I have no idea. How do I connect all my senses so that I can feel like a complete individual? For a legit start I have to say good bye to my “husband” not because I want to but because it’s no longer safe to be with a man who continues to try and lock me away in your mind. Silence is a hell of a thing to break. So many women suffer abuse and control in many ways but do not speak on the things that make them feel less than human. There are times my husband makes me feel small, and I mean on a cellular level. Today I choose me. I don’t particularly know what that will look like yet in the sense of the choice but I know I can’t keep offering up my soul to be used as tribute for his damaged ego.  I look into my son’s eyes and I know he deserves more than I have been giving him. I cannot allow my husband to steal my chance at being his mom. I admit I have been weak because I was afraid of being Alone...