Chronicles Of Chiney B

  MIRROR My back still hurt from that time you slammed me on the floor it even clicks when we fuck. Danm I'm all messed up Hope noone sees this limp My lip still wet from where your kiss slept 11:11 the clock stares back I wish I never came back In your eyes I see the one I married Young, innocent, caring, and free Changed your world when I gave you this cub. He set fire to the new me made me want to reach higher. Now I stare up Your eyes black filled with insecurities as I kick and plea Your hurting me! This is the new normal I see Cover bruises with kisses and tell me how much you love me, but I still cant shake the memory of what you did to me I can't believe this is happening to me something my baby didnt need to see. --Chiney B--

  It’s been 3 years since that day I threw up outside the studio sick from Felisha’s undercooked porkchop. I had been on a mission that day two friends in a day. Why am I calling my rapist a friend it wasn’t a very beneficial relationship for me. In fact he’s the only one benefiting. I wonder what remains of my pork chunks on pleasant st in Dorchester. A place I’ll never forget. It was my first time going to a garage studio. The recording booth was my dream. Being in there just pouring my heart out to my fans. Except that night i didn’t get to sing he snatched me out the booth faster than you can say macaroni pie. I guess his friends would never hear my voice or my talents. Neither would my fans. I guess it was two risky considering it took him two years to bring me here. I knew i didn’t want to listen to any more military stories I was ready to tell my own stories. He was extremely critical of e Everything i recorded telling me it’s foolishness or not good enough. I wasted hours i...

 He gets me, in a way I haven’t felt seen before. The communication is on point. He’s 10 years younger than me. I’m in love with a man child. That feels awkward to say but I don’t regret it. Met this person on instagram about 6 years now probably the hottest channel on the fbi list. But we talk about inverters, generators, solar power, solar energy, btu, and injustice. Marijuana and its use. Legalize the ganja. Texas is usually the last to catch a hint while the rest of the world advanced forward. Is it the Cuba of America? I imagine white people doing the jobs we can’t usually do. And the jobs we always do. I’m really being intentional about my words. I like to honest but I’ve found fib has made it to my tongue withholding information and just being afraid to just be open and vulnerable. But with you I can do that. Not even sure if you read my blog but in case you forgot I love you man. You’ve set fire to my existence again. I’d like to use you as my muse. Hope it’s ok.  I wa...

  Won’t you come home to me? A place that feels so home to me  Won’t you love me desperately?  I give you all of me and you let me down I want you I need you boy so desperately my feelings are caught up in a knot  You make me feel like a queen in a kingdom that has yet to rot. Ahhh another masterpiece in the works. Check back later all to my maujek.

  Birth As I ascended into greatness,  The walls began to close in Faces began to change  My mirror shattered from the pressures of caving in Reality vs actuality a “lie” A glamour so perfect I began to believe myself A world so perfectly built on nails, splinters and broken glass Unstable The truth seeps in Melted glass fills the cracks Like lava I dance in the dark  Scars appear beautiful through the eyes of the allured Glistening like diamonds in the wind From my sleep I awake

 Trigger “All I could think about was my husband and my son as he took out all his wildest fantasies on my body. I was stuck between a rock and a hard place literally. What moves I would make next I don’t know. I just waited for it to be over making as little eye contact as possible. He was so grotesque but there was nothing I could do being at what I thought was supposed to be a studio session. No snitching huh, it only works when its not you. Why everyone so obsessed with the hood, handling it myself. I had finally purchased my machete tonight would be the night I took his head off. The craze I felt in my body seeing him laying in a pool of blood. But instead I froze. Too shocked to move. I was a fool. Somewhere in my mind I drifted off to you and lead with the thought of you. My mind contorted as I tried to manifest you out of the darkest moments of my life. If only it were your hands upon my breast. If only it were your cock which stood erect before me. If only it were you and ...

  Love me baby Love me when the sun is bright in the sky. Love me in the pitch black of the night  Love me all year round Love me when it gets difficult Love me when it’s easy Love me for an eternity  I’ll love you until the end of time No one gets me like you do Love me through all my flaws. Love me when I’m weak  Love me when I’m strong  Love me like I love you so I can be more into you Love me for a lifetime  Just one Question  What is love?