i've waited my whole life to say this

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 I waited my whole life to be by your side.

I’m afraid of the unknown

The life I’ve known has been limited

We only get one, unless….

That’s complicated and I don’t know what your beliefs are

What would us even look like

I’m driven by my pain

Stuck in uncomfortable situations for years

Forced to be silent

The truth always comes out they say

Eventually 

When is eventually going to come

I find solace in your music

I’m afraid it’s going to change

You’re my escape from reality 

In your mind I retreat

That thing I despise so much

Why am I so insecure

Skip skotch top di lot

Babe, your all I got.

I’m afraid to call this place home

Family is starting to feel like strangers 

Do we just excuse  “I didn’t knows” and accept “Ill intented “I’m sorrys”

How long do we allow life to just carry us before we grab it by the horn and Steer.

You tried to paint me “Black”

A thing in your genetics that we all seek to Eliminate

When do we ever just “Accept”

He’s uncomfortable in his blackness and it shows.

Visuals of the mind, before technology we relied on the stars and the sun and the moon for direction 

If everything I do is “Crazy” what does normal look like

I’ve stopped listening to people who mean me no good.

Forced to take advice from the ugly who envy your beauty 

I’m in love with a man I can’t have.

Emotionally unavailable 

Until further notice 


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