Chronicles Of Chiney B

  Birth As I ascended into greatness,  The walls began to close in Faces began to change  My mirror shattered from the pressures of caving in Reality vs actuality a “lie” A glamour so perfect I began to believe myself A world so perfectly built on nails, splinters and broken glass Unstable The truth seeps in Melted glass fills the cracks Like lava I dance in the dark  Scars appear beautiful through the eyes of the allured Glistening like diamonds in the wind From my sleep I awake

 Trigger “All I could think about was my husband and my son as he took out all his wildest fantasies on my body. I was stuck between a rock and a hard place literally. What moves I would make next I don’t know. I just waited for it to be over making as little eye contact as possible. He was so grotesque but there was nothing I could do being at what I thought was supposed to be a studio session. No snitching huh, it only works when its not you. Why everyone so obsessed with the hood, handling it myself. I had finally purchased my machete tonight would be the night I took his head off. The craze I felt in my body seeing him laying in a pool of blood. But instead I froze. Too shocked to move. I was a fool. Somewhere in my mind I drifted off to you and lead with the thought of you. My mind contorted as I tried to manifest you out of the darkest moments of my life. If only it were your hands upon my breast. If only it were your cock which stood erect before me. If only it were you and ...

  Love me baby Love me when the sun is bright in the sky. Love me in the pitch black of the night  Love me all year round Love me when it gets difficult Love me when it’s easy Love me for an eternity  I’ll love you until the end of time No one gets me like you do Love me through all my flaws. Love me when I’m weak  Love me when I’m strong  Love me like I love you so I can be more into you Love me for a lifetime  Just one Question  What is love?

 I’ve wanted to be your woman over 20 years. I guess playing wife at school wasn’t enough. Am I foolish for waiting or does it all make perfect sense. I admit there were times I lost hope in us. But I don’t want to be lonely in this existence. Me wanting you had only made me feel more uncomfortable. I’m horny early in the morning. You’re not here to give me pleasure, my son is in my mother’s room so there’s no little feet under my thigh to make me feel uncomfortable. I’m missing you, far more than I’d been missing you before. What our future might bring I don’t know but boi have I been waiting. I think about mine and how it will compare to what your used to. Maybe I’m just young but monogamous relationships used to be all the rage. Im weird is a word I’ve gotten so used to attaching to myself still trying to figure out why I use negative words to associate my awkward moments, as if life isn’t already filled with them. I guess it was more comfortable to me than “stupid”. It’s not li...

 I don’t know how love feels. I don’t know what it’s supposed to feel like I just know how I feel and I don’t feel like I love anyone but my son. I’m in love with Chris Brown to an insane degree and I just went to my first Chris Brown concert it was quite the experience six hours of absolute bliss. I would do it over and over and over again. I have been in love with him since I was three years old before he made music and went into his career I met him at a school in Jamaica. He introduced himself to me as Christopher Maurice Brown. I never knew that my love for him would grow into an obsession. I don’t know how he ended up In Jamaica or why he was going to mineral Heights primary school, but that is where I met Christopher Maurice Brown. I have followed his career throughout his entire life, and when he became famous, I was the first to cheer him on I’m not familiar with a lot of his mixed tapes and I wish I was but at the end of the day I am extremely excited about his progress i...

You ever just stood under bad lighting and had to walk through some dark paths to appreciate some good times. Yea that’s where I am right now ow between somewhere dead and alive somewhere out in the distant universe my dead flies are counting down the day they get to come over. I talk about random things, but above all I explain my experience is here on earth. Let me begin to tell you the story about how Boston covered up my sexual assault with mental illness and forced me to comply by taking away my son from me. That’s pretty much the story, a plot to take my kid away from me by way of hospitalize me out of my sanity , the only thing they were able to diagnose was that I am insanely in love with Christopher Brown. someone would like to say that it worked something. It’s just a hoax, but either way he won, 1 custody of my beautiful baby boy, but still allows me to see him on weekends. I get supervised visitations. It’s been going great. I like this routine. I get to see my child. The c...

  You ever wonder what the first thing you talk about will be when you have the world at your fingertips what will come to your mind, that’s what I thought about when I did my first interview with Nashville Voyager I had so much anger and frustration in me from all that had happened between me and my mother and my ex-husband that I was fueled with the rage towards the black community . Not because of the fact that I was hospitalized, but because of the stereotype of being an angry black women being labeled as delusional because you want more than the average black woman, not knowing how to accomplish these things, but having the drive and enthusiasm to want more almost seems like something to be ridiculed by doctors, throwing large assumptions on my plans for my future as grand thoughts label in my ambitions as schizophrenic behavior, and Calling, my visions for my future hallucinations one must only wonder is your purpose to serve me or to humiliate me, ridicule me for the things ...