Chronicles Of Chiney B

  SSI I have worked tirelessly for the Department of transitional assistance and for the United States of America for the last 26 years of my existence in America. I have only recently stopped working as of 2022 before that I did countless things to make my life better here in the United States of America. Currently, I am locked away from funds that could assist me in my survival while here in America. It has become extremely cost to find a place to live, and I am currently supported by the government under DMH. I currently receive a monthly bus pass and $30 to pay for Transportation expenses. My phone bill is covered by an agency called Bay Cove and I receive my food from the department of transitional assistance. I am in need of clothing books and art supplies I have been trying to run a nonprofit while disabled. The scars I physically possess are not visual. I am mentally disabled in the form of psych psychiatric illness. I have developed schizophrenia. Though I do not possess t...

  How Many Bullets does it take to Kill me. Words Swirl in my mind Bring Strong proof  To wildered Minds Memories from the hospital flow through thine eyes as if existing in current moment. Strong pause to thine sight to help I stay present     How many Centuries does it take to Bind My mind with the idea of Freedom.  Chain My Feet, Rope my Neck, Lynch Me Feeling unfree in a modern penitentiary Dinner time, bring forth thine Slah  words bind my mind with memories of now freed Africans dashing to Freedom. Arriving to Jamaica, the Promise Land with hope for Freedom.  Villagers and Free Mason Workers stand close watch under Master’s eye, one kiss you Own all of them, your Color don’t you forget it.

 Guys, I got featured in the Voyager go check out this article and give me some likes! https://nashvillevoyager.com/interview/meet-brittania-williams-of-boston/ This article really threw me for a loop because I was newly hospitalized, given all the tools in the world to make myself become absolutely notable, and all I could think about was the trauma from almost being blown up by a man who I don’t even care about. Like if my baby daddy tried to blow me up I guess I would deserve it because I gave him a baby. He’s stuck with that mother lover for the rest of his life. He is reminded of my face every single day. He wakes up you know so he can’t even hate me. He has to love me. Anyways, I was thinking about Hayden him and then divorce papers came in the mail. I still can’t believe it. He divorced me from the hospital. We didn’t even talk about a separation good enough before he sent divorce papers. I thought maybe we should get separated but not divorced certainly I thought there was ...

 So I am dying for a feature on somebody’s album, in a magazine, in a photo, just somewhere local, just did my first performance at Apex local common star coming out and doing her thing.  So now I recognize that some people might be confused about my sex or gender because I keep saying that I’m his wife or I’m his only guy and I just feel like sometimes I have an imaginary penis. I don’t know how many people feel like this, but sometimes mine grows in my mind and I just wanna grab somebody and have sex with them so I understand how men feel when they’re around women it’s like controlling that urge to not let your winker grow. It’s completely understandable cause sometimes the pussy talks to us too, and we have to be emotionally and mentally connected in order for those parts to work so that the water fountain can run. Anyways, hold music was inspired by my Sallie Mae debt collection bill where they told me I owe them over $60,000 for a degree that is absolutely useless unless ...

  Hold Music On one thing you need to know about your new favorite writer is that I do not hold back. Yeah I smoke weed sometimes I even drink alcohol on occasion, but it has to be special occasions like New Year’s birthdays Christmas holidays stuff like that. I think that stuff should be consumed, minimally wine on the other hand who can go wrong with fermented grapes I have some papayas that I wanna ferment and make papaya wine. My whole music would be better than anybody’s hold music. Imagine getting a dose of Chiney be while listening and waiting for the receptionist who’s destined to give you bad news answer the phone. You’d probably be excited to just be able to hear something that doesn’t have swearers in it right yeah I might drop the dick or fuck bomb once in a while but it’s not all over plastered in my music cause my son has PG ears and I want him to grow up in the world where there are respectable human beings, not misogynistic music that teaches him to disrespect women...

  Maura Healey Some things slip through the crack, this was one of them I was being forced to work from the office while I was experiencing a hardship during coronavirus and I got fired for recording the meeting. I believe I was in the right to request an accommodation while I was being denied one. I had just returned to work from my 5th or so medical leave in 2 years hospitalization and had an active domestic violence situation. I believe I was unjustifiable released from my position and are hoping you can take a look into the discrimination I was also receiving an obsessive amount of emails text messages and phone calls and emails from my supervisor despite sending screenshots of my difficulties. I was using the phone hotspot to power me as I was homeless at the time doing my job out of my truck and local coffee shops with secure WiFi.The Boston Globe I would like my position back with back pay. I didn’t deserve to be let go. It was coronavirus and everyone was working from home....

  My Dearest Maurice   Happy new years readers! This is just a quick message since I’m blocked. Read if you want to. In my daily fantasy of us I imagine you waking up wanting sex. Assuming you want me as your future wife I shouldn’t be worried. Because as I age my hips have brung pain to the party. I had my fun. I hope you just want to chill. One day he’ll be mine again. Am I certain of that still, not anymore. You barely remember me on a daily basis. Messages still lie unopened waiting an emoji or heartfelt reply but that’s not how it’s going ain’t it. It’s going weird. It’s lacking love though you say it your words feel empty and void of true emotion. Or maybe I just don’t feel like you love me the way you say you do. I’ve also found comfort in the voice of another. His calm brings me peace. I’ve known him for almost 7 years now while we are just reconnecting after 30+ years. Our love feels distant almost worn out with time but strong nonetheless. Or maybe I’m dreaming of a ...

  MIRROR My back still hurt from that time you slammed me on the floor it even clicks when we fuck. Danm I'm all messed up Hope noone sees this limp My lip still wet from where your kiss slept 11:11 the clock stares back I wish I never came back In your eyes I see the one I married Young, innocent, caring, and free Changed your world when I gave you this cub. He set fire to the new me made me want to reach higher. Now I stare up Your eyes black filled with insecurities as I kick and plea Your hurting me! This is the new normal I see Cover bruises with kisses and tell me how much you love me, but I still cant shake the memory of what you did to me I can't believe this is happening to me something my baby didnt need to see. --Chiney B--

  It’s been 3 years since that day I threw up outside the studio sick from Felisha’s undercooked porkchop. I had been on a mission that day two friends in a day. Why am I calling my rapist a friend it wasn’t a very beneficial relationship for me. In fact he’s the only one benefiting. I wonder what remains of my pork chunks on pleasant st in Dorchester. A place I’ll never forget. It was my first time going to a garage studio. The recording booth was my dream. Being in there just pouring my heart out to my fans. Except that night i didn’t get to sing he snatched me out the booth faster than you can say macaroni pie. I guess his friends would never hear my voice or my talents. Neither would my fans. I guess it was two risky considering it took him two years to bring me here. I knew i didn’t want to listen to any more military stories I was ready to tell my own stories. He was extremely critical of e Everything i recorded telling me it’s foolishness or not good enough. I wasted hours i...

 He gets me, in a way I haven’t felt seen before. The communication is on point. He’s 10 years younger than me. I’m in love with a man child. That feels awkward to say but I don’t regret it. Met this person on instagram about 6 years now probably the hottest channel on the fbi list. But we talk about inverters, generators, solar power, solar energy, btu, and injustice. Marijuana and its use. Legalize the ganja. Texas is usually the last to catch a hint while the rest of the world advanced forward. Is it the Cuba of America? I imagine white people doing the jobs we can’t usually do. And the jobs we always do. I’m really being intentional about my words. I like to honest but I’ve found fib has made it to my tongue withholding information and just being afraid to just be open and vulnerable. But with you I can do that. Not even sure if you read my blog but in case you forgot I love you man. You’ve set fire to my existence again. I’d like to use you as my muse. Hope it’s ok.  I wa...

  Won’t you come home to me? A place that feels so home to me  Won’t you love me desperately?  I give you all of me and you let me down I want you I need you boy so desperately my feelings are caught up in a knot  You make me feel like a queen in a kingdom that has yet to rot. Ahhh another masterpiece in the works. Check back later all to my maujek.

  Birth As I ascended into greatness,  The walls began to close in Faces began to change  My mirror shattered from the pressures of caving in Reality vs actuality a “lie” A glamour so perfect I began to believe myself A world so perfectly built on nails, splinters and broken glass Unstable The truth seeps in Melted glass fills the cracks Like lava I dance in the dark  Scars appear beautiful through the eyes of the allured Glistening like diamonds in the wind From my sleep I awake

 Trigger “All I could think about was my husband and my son as he took out all his wildest fantasies on my body. I was stuck between a rock and a hard place literally. What moves I would make next I don’t know. I just waited for it to be over making as little eye contact as possible. He was so grotesque but there was nothing I could do being at what I thought was supposed to be a studio session. No snitching huh, it only works when its not you. Why everyone so obsessed with the hood, handling it myself. I had finally purchased my machete tonight would be the night I took his head off. The craze I felt in my body seeing him laying in a pool of blood. But instead I froze. Too shocked to move. I was a fool. Somewhere in my mind I drifted off to you and lead with the thought of you. My mind contorted as I tried to manifest you out of the darkest moments of my life. If only it were your hands upon my breast. If only it were your cock which stood erect before me. If only it were you and ...

  Love me baby Love me when the sun is bright in the sky. Love me in the pitch black of the night  Love me all year round Love me when it gets difficult Love me when it’s easy Love me for an eternity  I’ll love you until the end of time No one gets me like you do Love me through all my flaws. Love me when I’m weak  Love me when I’m strong  Love me like I love you so I can be more into you Love me for a lifetime  Just one Question  What is love?

 I’ve wanted to be your woman over 20 years. I guess playing wife at school wasn’t enough. Am I foolish for waiting or does it all make perfect sense. I admit there were times I lost hope in us. But I don’t want to be lonely in this existence. Me wanting you had only made me feel more uncomfortable. I’m horny early in the morning. You’re not here to give me pleasure, my son is in my mother’s room so there’s no little feet under my thigh to make me feel uncomfortable. I’m missing you, far more than I’d been missing you before. What our future might bring I don’t know but boi have I been waiting. I think about mine and how it will compare to what your used to. Maybe I’m just young but monogamous relationships used to be all the rage. Im weird is a word I’ve gotten so used to attaching to myself still trying to figure out why I use negative words to associate my awkward moments, as if life isn’t already filled with them. I guess it was more comfortable to me than “stupid”. It’s not li...

 I don’t know how love feels. I don’t know what it’s supposed to feel like I just know how I feel and I don’t feel like I love anyone but my son. I’m in love with Chris Brown to an insane degree and I just went to my first Chris Brown concert it was quite the experience six hours of absolute bliss. I would do it over and over and over again. I have been in love with him since I was three years old before he made music and went into his career I met him at a school in Jamaica. He introduced himself to me as Christopher Maurice Brown. I never knew that my love for him would grow into an obsession. I don’t know how he ended up In Jamaica or why he was going to mineral Heights primary school, but that is where I met Christopher Maurice Brown. I have followed his career throughout his entire life, and when he became famous, I was the first to cheer him on I’m not familiar with a lot of his mixed tapes and I wish I was but at the end of the day I am extremely excited about his progress i...